HELLO
i see a loooong weekend coming right up
and this time i die die oso must capitalise and not let it go to waste like the uncountable weekends since last year!
hmm though i think i cant go fast on revision but some pace is better than no pace!
so i'll be patient and learn slowly
can worry more after prelims

*poof*

well well i seee many friends attending this talk and that talk
it's kinda weird to go through a decline over the years
i mean during primary school i was one of the top
and then it slowly went spiralling down
ok dont get me wrong
im not jealous or moody or regretful or what
it just so happened that today i did a GP essay
'There's no such thing as luck. People determine their own lives.'
HOW TRUE
i chose to take it easy on studies
and this is what i get
YEPS


at least im not those who slog their lives out to study but for god-knows-what reason
in fact it actually turns me off when i ask these people 'So, what do you wanna be next time?'
and the reply is 'dunno leh. never think of it yet.' or 'mebbe i can be blah-blah if i take blah-blah course'
u may find me cynical but then again u cant deny the existence of such people around
but of course i admire those who have already set their sights on achieving something
and is working hard towards achieving their ambition.
perhaps it's a disgruntled me or just a crap me but it's just isn't me to do something without a purpose

well some may say that a good academic achievement is a first step towards having a good career
a good career sounds pretty attractive eh?
but not for me
i don't mind having earn that bit lesser and do a job i really like
so far my hopes of being a doctor is anything but realisable
not that im pessimistic
but i don't think that i have the abilities to handle it
while im in search of a liking towards another career
i do not see where my source of motivation can come from
having said that it doesnt mean that i intend to forsake my studies or whatsoever
just that i'd adopt a 'there's-more-to-life' attitude!
LOL
for the fact that i do not wanna deprive myself of possible choices in life




i always ask myself : what would the world be like if the whole world's population is like me?

of course the place would be rather sarcastic cos i always suan people
and war would break out everywhere because of that
LOL
that's besides the point HAHA
to some people i may seem to be confident and decisive in things i do
however i feel that i live on a pseudo-ego
which means that i only APPEAR to be confident
well well
that's just one of the point that i wanna bring up
but the point im driving is that if you ask yourself this question
you will be able to identify your strengths and weaknesses
then over time, you will be able to notice the change in yourself
i noticed my change over the years
be it bad or good
it's still a change


*poof*


okae it's amazing how i can digress THAT much
i have no idea how i linked to the those topics
but since it's as such then let it be
hahaha
back to the real world
my vectors revision learning package is staring at me O.O