wanted to study today in the afternoon
but like usual there was not much of a motivation to do so
or maybe in chemistry terms
it is known as ACTIVATION ENERGY, Ea
LOL ya (:

but seriously im thinking that studying well is fast becoming a social conformity
i mean not many truly knows the reason behind studying
in the fast people had a better idea about education because they see it as a path to shrug off poverty
however
today studying has lost it's purpose
im not trying to imply that studying is not important
but it really bothers me alot that human beings are losing their own values
values of give-and-take, self sacrificial, and many other humanitarian values
it really irks me to see things being done in selfish manner

arghh
nvm it's just yet another i-dunno-what-im-thinking days


oh and did i say that my supposed study session turned to a trip down to queensway to buy stuffs?
i bought a white sling
a black and white checkered berms
(ORANGE!) adidas shirt
another adidas pants
(:

just finished training at home u
BOY it was so tiring!
arghh
my stamina have depleted from a nearly non-existent state to a non-existent one
._.
it's bad
BAD BAD BAD
and i've played badly(like usual)
but never mind
this time it's playtime purely for physical and emotional wellness
why emotional?
haha
cos results havent really been that fantastic

maths 27 (last in class)
chem 29 (another last in class =P)
phys 53 (the only paper with considerable preparation)
econs 41 (ermmm shhhhh)
gp 47

ok lah
not that i am very affected by my results or anything
just that i dont like it when your teacher and parents say that you have to buck up
i mean like "duh"
of course have to!
i cant think of any other things that can be said
-.- LOL
BUT BUT BUT!
THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER WHEN YOU HAVE SUCH A SITUATION
SO...
REJOICE! :D
anyways i'm starting to sort out my timetable! (:
and i must say that if this time round i still fail to improve
i can only conclude that im not the cut to study

that's target number 1: to do BETTER for prelims
target number 2 is to cut down on fats intake
no more BIG BIG PLATE of caifan and 4 meals a day
from today
diet shall be scrutinised by myself
of course with OCCASIONAL inevitable indulgences
(P.S.: note the 'S' in 'indulgences')
say 'hello' to niang toufu with two toufu and two eggs per meal
take the proteins minus the fats plus some exercise = less flab and more muscles
(:

*POOF* here's school (AGAIN)

BLAH BLAH BLAH
DATE:23th june 2008
time:1:19 am
THINGS-TO-DO: S-C-H-O-O-L ._.

just had a match against WRS just now
won by 30point margin
as usual didnt really play much
but i dun blame anybody
because im really not up to the standard ya
and my fitness and everything spiralled down drastically

arghh
i sooooo sooo dread school nowadays
why do i dread?
i dread having to wake up at 545
i dread having to struggle to keep my alr-very-small eyes open during class
i dread having to keep my aching neck from acting up
i dread long double period lessons(like GP)
i dread having to rush from PE classes to GP class with all my perspiration dripping around
i dread having to take lecture test cos i always finish before others(dun be mistaken, it's just that i have nothing much to write about -.-)
i dread having to go to class not knowing what everybody is talking about
the list goes on and on and on and on....


ok
im seriously going to suffer from monday blues tomorrow morning
so if anybody sees my expressionless face
it's just me alright LOL

IT'S 4AM IN THE MORNING

ok i declared that im semi nocturnal now
i've been sleeping at 5am
waking up at 2pm
n sleeping again till dinner
.______________.
somebody tell me how im gonna go to school in such a way


watched a horror show just now
premonition
it wasn't actually horror
but it was a pretty sad show
i could have gone bonkers if i were that man!
he was made to go through his suffering many many times
and each time he made a different decision in which he would haf to go through different outcome!
ya at the end of the day
i think the producer is just trying to say
'your fate, your decision'


okae i've just uploaded many videos onto my handphone
though my screen is only a pathetic little 170x220
but it can provide some entertainment when im darn bored
spongebob michael jordan 蜡笔小新!
it's enough to keep me going for a month i guess
I HOPE
LOL


GOOD MORNING EVERYONE !

3 days left til school
i can only say that im dreading the coming of it
FIRST, im going to freaking wake up at lik 545 A.M.
@#)($&@#()_!)_(#$*@
NEXT, i have to go for lessons again
it's an angel-vs-devil struggle everyday
but evil always triumph
i don't know why LOL
THIRD, it's results time!
and consequently, it means consolidation time!
and oh boy, im in deep shit!

okae i think i've gotten off betting already
or maybe
for the time being
it's just too hurting to my pocket to be kept as a long term habit
=P
and my winning percentage stands at an astonishing ZERO% and maintained a proud record of 100% donation to singapore pools (:
haha
NVM money is 身外物 !
just hope that my spain will pull through everything to win the championship
i'd be so glad WOOTs

today played bball in school
it was suppose to be a gathering of three generation
but in the end only 8 ppl turned up
WOW
aiyah must be ngiam's face
thats why nobody wanted to come
but still it feels great to play bball at nj bball court
though it looks lik a war torn place but still not bad (:

however both my ankles doesnt seems to agree with me nowadays
it's hurting horribly everytime i try to get up after resting
it feels like it would crumble anytime soon
but when im playing it's not that bad
i still can run around! (:

im trying to type my entry in full words!
im attempting to avoid using short forms (:
im feeling high

self reflection time

countdown:one week left to sch
work done: -nil-

i've been thinking quite alot recently
like always holidays is a time for u to think think n think
hmmm 18 bodes a new chapter to life whether u lik it or not
it's time to think of the future

since quite a young age
i've wanted to b a doctor
not for the money
but for the joy u get when u help ppl
n my ambition is being further fuelled by my encounters with horrible doctors
but taking a look at my present plight
future seems bleak to me
HAHA
probably i'll just settle for the ordinary job out there
but one thing im sure is that everybody only goes through teenage years once
n i wun wanna exchange all my teenage yrs for books n notes as much as it can help me secure a better future


ytd was talking to calvin abt our future
den it dwelled upon me
'what do i want my future to be lik'
in an ideal scenario
the following would be how i hope my future would be like

monthly salary of approx >$6000(is tt alot?)
get myself a good wife(good is up to personal intepretation: i think my expectation will decrease as singlehood duration increases) =P
go around the world to take a look at different places
happy family
tt's all i wish for (:

hmm i realise friends ard u may just be so superficial
dey appear to be nice n everything to u
dey gossip abt tt person
y not just ask tt person in the face
it wun hurt a single bit
perhaps being slightly more introverted wouldnt hurt too
n y cant human beings be lik animals
act on instincts, not emotions

shall keep this n3 short n head for bed
oh n this is the only day in the entire holidays i haf yet to step out of my house!
but im feeling so sick of it!

i pity alex
LOL
byebye 100 dollars
budden again
u dun lose anything until u've won it
sooo
alex din lose anything (:


haha stayed at munkit's house to watch euro
was a damn exciting match wif everyone hoping tt thier singapore pools ticket would turn into real cash
BUT
in the end
singapore pools was the winner
we had a post match reflection
n i think we shouldnt bet anymore
(at least for the next few days)
until i haf enough funds! LOL
but betting is bad for weak hearts! :X


arghh had match today
sprained my ankle
it was quite stupid cos i sprained it myself
n it was during the first quarter
siann
n im getting fatful nowadays
not much activity
but sitll eat quite alot
must cut down on food intake!

sex n the city was not bad
haha quite interesting to me (:
eh probably 3 stars to me yea
go watch it!

hmm
today had match against combined white
i dunno wad happened
i think i 4got how to play bball
i think ever since i came nj
i 4got how to play bball
i un-learned bball to b exact
hmm defensively i learnt alot
but offensively i lost everything
n it showed today :X

nvm let just let me get over n done wif this competition
rather sick of it alr.
im not studying
im not doing my work
im not bballing well
im not gng out often

i dunno wad i've been doing for the entire june holidays
n many more worse things r coming right up after june holidays =X
SHYT

SWITCH ALLEGIANCE

I'VE DECIDED TO SWITCH TO BS AFTER A LOONG LOOOOOONG STRUGGLE
apparently eblog isnt veri reliable after all
i gave it so many days for it to return
but still it failed me so i've decided to switch to bs

but i'll b missing all my post since sec1 i think :X
tt's a bloody long 5-6 yrs worth of posts
=(

okae on a brighter note
i think i m SMART
u see my template?
i somehow manage to change the skin of the template after spending two hours trying to understand wad html is all about
in the end
I SUCCEEDED (A little) by changing the template n editing some stuffs
yea so
conclusion: im lihai!


euro 2008 n 18 yrs old is a bad concotion for slacking
i've been trying to b a statistician n fortune teller for the past few days
trying to predict score
so far i've predicted 3 out of 4 match right
so i've decided to make a bet in tonight's match
but sadly
i haf this feeling tt im gonna throw money to singapore pools by the end of 2am
:X nvm it's all done in the name of charity (: